For The Sake Of The Closet

It's no secret that I'm an openly gay man (no really!) and at times that has meant having to compromise that for the sake of a relationship with someone. It's interesting what love makes you do, the blindness it causes you and the many sacrifices you're willing to make to make sure it works and stays like that.

I've been guilty of being the lover that wants to please (in almost every way possible) and in doing so allowing myself to be hidden away or forced back into the closet for the sake of the one I was in love with. The one thing about me is this, if you have issues with your sexuality or prefer to keep things on the down-low then by all means don't date me, let's **** and call it a day! Don't reel me in and win me over, my heart is too small and my thoughts too sensitive, in the end the truth will always come out and the end-result will be catastrophic.

I have met many "straight" men who have been more than willing to "try something new" for the sake of experience, but as an already out-of-the-closet gay I got a little caught up in the exciting moments, after all I was also living out a little fantasy of mine and who can blame me?

A lot of gay men lie to themselves, they convince themselves that they've crossed that bridge and that they comfortable, but truth is once they get faced with someone who's truly comfortable being themselves in every way possible the idea starts to become unappealing and scary, they question their truths and end up peeking into their dusty closets to see if they could move in again. That to me is a little sad because we have gay Rights for a reason, we're constantly battling discrimination from Society yet we start with each other?

To conclude my point I vowed that I would never go back to that dusty,cob-webbed closet of mine, it's officially a closed door with some serious bolts on it! A faded memory of a sad world we live in, so what are you waiting for? Need a hammer and some nails?

~ LK

Working 9 to 5 Just to Stay Alive

As humans we are raised and taught how to live and co-exist, and in these teachings we make our own choices and carve our own paths. We have muses and mentors who prove to be a guide to our own growth and unless you're willing to bet all your dollars on the fact that you can be the next success story you fall into one of two traps: Eat or be Eaten.

I've been called a "dreamer" and these special little people have a tough time convincing themselves that they bear a purpose on this earth that can be truly and artistically appreciated, you're the sensitive type that can sometimes absorb negativity from a hater or someone trying to sway you into another "society-approved" direction forgetting that your inner soul stands to suffer long-term, I call this a "slow-death".

How many times have you been told - "get a job that makes REAL money!" or "You need to put food on the table" and here's another one of my favourites "Beggars can't be choosers", sadly this is what the world has come to, we are slaves to Society, slaves to money and most importantly slaves to our needs.

Envision a young single mother of one who has bills to pay,a child to look after and a life to live, she simply cannot have a healthy balance of her own wants and needs when she has to put her bigger responsibilities in front of her. Many times people end up giving up and life becomes less of a pleasure and more of a burden.

Life is tough and at times can be a whole bag of burden, but what is most important is the positive people you surround yourself with, your achievements (big or small) and knowing that at the end of the day you DID put some food on your table someway,somehow, while working nine to five just to stay alive.

LK